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My blood, my sweat, my tears.
My time, my work, my fears.
All rush before my eyes,
in spite of all my tries.
The words you say
and the things you do.
I trusted to all this while to be true.

Please, please, please, please, please, please,

I just want to cry for joy.

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High - Lighthouse Family

When you're close to tears remember
Some day it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
And though it's darker than december
What's ahead is a different colour
One day were gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the days
We were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You'll always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day were gonna get so high
cause even the impossible is easy
When we got each other
One day were gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the days
We were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

High, high, high, high...

I totally cant wait for UMAD 7! Woohoo! Overseas at Kota Tinggi (: I havent posted in ages, omg. Hahah. Hols werent really hols, more like relaxed school hours. Entrepreneurship was fine, not so eventful. But Mind Cafe outing with Shona, Jieyi, Kimberly, Fouzan, Aloysius, Weesheng, Dennis,  Godwin and Shuwei was really fun though. Especially the first Ugly Doll game. Hahahah violence and noise! Hmmm. Prayer Pointers for the week!

1. Pray for Stations Of The Cross to be smooth.
2. Pray for creative juices to flow for games.
3. For the UMAD comm to be able to deal with the stress that'll be coming.
4. That I will stick to the daily Daniel Fast.
5. That I will remember what the fasting is for ; to be reminded on my reliance on God, and that the hunger pangs will remind me to pray.
6. That UMAD7 will be a success not only in earthly terms, but in spiritual terms as well.
7. For me to do my Quiet Time once school reopens.
8. To pray the prayer pointers!

TOPAZ IS LEADING :D
 
We totally have the right to gloat about it, since we've been losing forever =/ But time's are a-changing! Hahaha :D
I need to think of games! And themes! My brain is dry. Heheh.
Ah. I'm really lazy, dont really wanna post, but kim's asked me to post quizzes on her blog, so I'll be nice and post one. (:

Tagged by Kimberly.

5 TRUE facts about you:
*I'm in canoeing.
*Dramaaaaaaaa.
*I'm a girl ;D
*I wish I could sing and act.
*I'm a child of God.

5 THINGS that you love:
#God!
#Friends&Family
#Switchfoot
#Lord of the Rings
#Movies

5 THINGS that you hate:
+Not being supportive of the people I love
+Feeling guilty
+Feeling sad
+Being 'sian'
+Feeling inadequate

Choose 10 people and do the following:
No. 1 : Kimberly
No. 2 : Jieyi
No. 3 : Lucas
No. 4 : Natalie
No. 5 : Anne
No. 6 : Hazel
No. 7 : Weesheng
No. 8 : Yongsoon
No. 9 : Davin
No. 10 : Aloysius

(1) Is no. 2 your best friend?
Yeap.

(2) Is no. 1 and no. 7 dating?
Haha no.

(3) Who are you closer to? No. 5 or no. 10?
5.

(4) When's no. 8's birthday?
9 Nov 1994.

(5) Will number 9 be the obstacle in your life?
Hope not!

(6) Is no. 3 irritating?
:D

(7) What if no. 8 betrays you?
Eh. Keep making fun of his english. Hahaha.

(8) Is no. 4 an idiot?
HAHA NOPE.

(9) Will no. 6 be an idiot when he/she grows up?
No comment!

(10) Which do you prefer? no.1 - 10.
How could I answer? I'd be biased :P

Okay I'm done. Now to go do my homework and continue brainstorming!
P.S: This season's AI isnt has good as last season's.

I guess you can't have everything, you cant do everything and you cant get back what you refused.


This is a christian video. If you want to watch it, then go ahead, but please dont be offended of you're non christian. I just need this to remind myself of what He went through for me, so that I wont take it for granted.

Friday
Valentine's/ Friendship Day Eve! School was really happening with all the heart balloons, flowers and chocolates :D Felt kinda bad that I didnt get anything for my  friends, even though some gave me :X Okay and to make up for not getting anything:

Went out with my mom after school. halfway through I started scratching and OMG! I realised I have rashes ):

Saturday
Met Kimberly on the train and went to watch Bride Wars. After the movie we met up with JieYi and we had lunch at Just Acia. Free flow of drinks and ice cream! Took the bus to Far East Plaza and walked around. The rashes kept popping up, and during the movie, I scratched so much that it became really gross and bad. When we were walking around I had to keep going to the toilet to reapply the calomine lotion. We didnt buy anything in the end (Sorry Jieyi!) but we had dinner at this Jap outlet called MoguMogu. The way to order is quite cool. Took pictures, but they're with kim (:

Sunday
Didn't go to church today coz of the rashes. And had to go to the doctor in the morning. she gave me like, 4 different types of tablets to take or something, but it's all the herbal kind, so I guess it isn't so bad. From the doctor my mom and I went to Bedok Inter for lunch and the library. After that we were on our way to NTUC when we bumped into YongSoon and Kimberly! Found out they were planning Weesheng's birthday 'party'. Joined them and Godwin for awhile, but went home to change and get my books coz they were studying. Went to meet them at LJS, Godwin wasn't there, but Davin was. So me, YS, Davin and Kim were at LJS waiting for WS and Hazel. They came and Ta-Da! We gave WS his present and his eclair-cake. :D Studied for awhile more then we went to NTUC to buy Valentine gifts. From there we went home :D

Fun day today. Happy but itchyitchyitchyitchyitchyitchyyyyyy!

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Just watched the latest episode of GG. I feel totally disgusted and wronged. It ended with Dan and Serena breaking up, and Dan and Rachel hooking up. Makes me sick to my stomach. Dan's so preppy and cute, it's hard to believe he's such a player =/
It's 2:07am now, and I'm getting quite tired. Realised I dont have any photos with my school friends, so I'm hoping that will change soon!

I WANNA GO OUT AND PHOTOFRENZY.

Until U Love U

I know sometimes when you see yourself
What you see yourself, is someone not good enough
I know there's times when you feel like, you can do nothing right
And insecurity takes a hold, obscures your vision of your soul
You can't see what's inside, open up your eyes

[Chorus]
Take a look in the mirror, you're beautiful
Take a moment to love the one you are
Learn to accept yourself, coz it's the truth
Can't love nobody else, until you love you

I know sometimes it's so hard to keep up your self esteem
Sometimes you can feel so small
And it's so easy to tell yourself, you're not worth much at all
When you're unsure of who you are, and now it's tearin’ you apart
You can't see what is true, change your point of view

[Chorus]

Find, what is real is what's inside you
Know, there's no else in this world like you
Take, maybe just a little time to stop and see just who you really are

[Chorus] x2

Take a look in the mirror x4
You're beautiful.....

-Pussycat Dolls.

"Not a day has gone by since the beginning of time, 
 That someone hasnt offered meager nickels or dimes,
 Golden altars and crosses, contributions and penance,
 Stone monuments and steeples; but why not repentance?

"Just give me a tear - a heart ready to mold.
 And I'll give you a misson, a message so bold.
That a fire will be stirred where there was only death,
 And your heart will be flamed by my life and my breath."
- Max Lucado.

I realized something in canoeing today: God can get angry too, if we dont listen to HIm (ref to older post).

"The sacrifice God wants is a broken spirit. God, you will not reject a heart that is broken and sorry for sin."
Psalm 51: 17

I know blogged this verse before, but it seems that today it rings ever more true. Thank you Lord for being there and forgiving my sin.
Thank you for always loving me. :D

School is totally smothering me.
It's like completely conquering my life, and i'm utterly overwhelmed by the demands that come along with secondary school life.
I have no idea whats going on in Chem, and I never seem to be able to answer the questions given for homework. 
And don't even get me started on Maths.
Couldn't attend training on Tuesday because Bio ended late and before Jieyi and I could even get changed, training ended.
Feels like I cant juggle CCA and studies.
I don't even feel like Captain, I'm totally not told about what's going on, and I'm one of the last to know about things.
And instead of my fellow captains telling me the plans, or even involving me in the planning,
I have the members of the CCA smsing me to tell me what's up.
More than that, I'm such a lousy partner that I constantly forget to remind Amelia of training updates.

I like Bio, don't know why Frankie Liow wants me to drop. Weird.

Alex is still trying to get used to his new environment, and I'm extremely grateful to the guys for helping him feel welcomed.
I'm really hoping he'll come out from his shell now that he's in Singapore, and he'll be able to cope with the new standards of education.
I came to realize in Physics today that if I myself cannot cope, who am I to try and help him cope?
I don't blame him for being unable to catch up.
I mean come on, it's only his THIRD day in a SINGAPOREAN school.
And one that pushes its students stupidly hard I might add.
That and the fact that our teachers can be super intimidating, let alone the STUDENTS.
Speaking of which, I havent actually spoken to that particular person since school reopened,
and I dont really know whether I should be thankful for that or not.

I haven't been carrying out my plans for doing Quiet Time and push-ups & sit-ups in the morning.
First of all, I cant get up early enough to do.
I am extremely worried for Sports Day.
WHAT was I thinking signing up for the 200m race???
Demented idiot.
I cant sprint 400m(200m, 100m, 4x100m)!
Paranoid that I'll come in last at the Heats, which I probably will, competing against the likes of Jieyi, Sok Shan and Shona.
And I'm guessing LiJing and Carissa too.
Lord please help me not to embarrass myself ):
Canoeing competition coming soon too.
And it's gonna last for like, everyday for a month.
30 DAYS OF MISSED LESSONS.
OMG.
Totally screwed can. Better train hard to make those missed lessons worth it.

Chinese New Year is coming.
Does that mean I get a chance to restart my New Year Resolutions?

Canoeing is just like the Christian walk, I just realised.
It's not just a physical struggle, its also a mental and emotional one too.
When you're canoeing and the wind is throwing water at your face, and your balance is totally off,
it's like when we're walking daily with God, but so many troubles come in to confuse us and throw us off course.
When you capsize, its like when we give in to the temptations of the world and we allow ourselves to fall.
And when coach is sitting in his own boat watching us canoe, it's like God watching over us, guiding us and helping us.
But its always up to us whether we wanna listen to him, and if we wanna follow what he says.
It's really difficult to concentrate when you canoe; you have to balance, keep your technique strokes, rotate, and keep your strength.
But in the end when you win a medal, it all seems worth it.
Which is exactly like the spiritual relationship we have with God.

I thought of all of that during canoeing just now.
I really dont like sec 3. I hope I;ll get used to it soon.
Too many assignments and too little time. URGH.

I'm pretty excited for tomorrow to come,
but mainly because I can start using the devotional that Yuan gave our CG,
which is called My Time With God.
I'm hoping that I'll be able to prioritize my time in such a way
that I can finish up all my studying and still have time to do Our Daily Journey,
as well as My Time With God.
Waking up earlier to do ODJ is what I had in mind,
but I doubt I'll be able to wake up early ):
But I'm still gonna try, and with God's help I'll be able to do ODJ in the morning before school,
and MTWG at night after school, or maybe even during school, since its mostly just reading, and abit of reflection.

Yuan and Sork Chin have been telling us to start journaling, which will help in our walk with Christ.
I've decided to do a Devotional Blog, which is easier to keep.
Hopefully I will also be able to keep blogging my spiritual journey with God.
I was thinking of starting a new blog, but I'm not very sure yet, so we'll see (:


"Above all else, guard your heart,
 for it is the wellspring of life."
    -Proverbs 4:23